As long and as hard as i think, it seems to me that every person in society is bound by this invisible entity that tugs and pulls us to certain labelled boxes.These boxes in turn seem to bind us into an image of ourselves which we deem to believe is who we are as ‘unique’ human beings.
In the short life that i have lived -looking, questioning and ever pondering, i have had trouble with the idea of who i am . I’ve made my rounds moulding myself to fit into the abstract yet ever present boxes of the “in group” and at one point, i have also given into blending easily with groups that i seem to have “naturally” formed a connection to; and yet again in one point of life i’ve drifted and belonged everywhere and nowhere.Yet, this fixation to fit in to or not to anything really, is my perplexity.
You see, when i describe myself in some form or another, i’m seen under that box of description. That box then enables people to get to know me in a limited format.It may be many boxes but it somehow doesn’t feel like ‘I’ have been fully represented in that line of sight.
Say, we labelled a blogger as being Marxist. This person becomes bound by people -not just followers but readers of his/her work , into this box or boxes of being a Marxist .This somehow distorts and makes this one life so definable and deducible.Is this really a fair evaluation? Are we really allowed to view people in such ways?
The one dimensional understanding of man is not what scares me- Its the fact that we ourselves internalise this as our truth and come to live by it. And whats scarier than living with a partial self that diminishes everything in its path?
I know this limited view applies not just to man but life and i’m afraid that these categorisations – multiple for some yet restrictive in many ways ,may disable us from seeing things in a broader perspective and instead become a restricting mechanism.
But then again arises the question -What would life be but confusing if we didn’t know how to look at any one person?(what with the known and the unknown categories that he or she may represent all at once!)
Perhaps i’m babbling on about nothing ;Perhaps i’m going nowhere with this .But this is ,in written, my perplexity for today.
Dear reader, would you be so kind as to share my perplexity and enter into this never ending discussion with me?
Till then, i shall rest my head to detach a little from this dilemma….